Sneak Peak

OK... it has been ions since I last blogged... been a bit busy. The wedding was a whirlwind of fun. I am both happy and sad that it is over. It seemed like the day went by so fast. At the end of the day I simply felt loved. Loved by my friends, loved by my family, and loved more than I have ever felt by Anthony. He is an amazing man and I do not say it enough. I will always feel like he saved me... and continues to do so. People keep asking me if it feels different and the answer is yes. I didn't expect it to - we have been together for 6 years and lived together for 4. When he comes home from work... it is my husband coming home. When I go to bed at night, it is my husband and I sleeping next to. I love you bowdie, and always will:)

To say how grateful I am to all my amazing friends and family is utterly not enough. Looking back, I think I am a much better bridesmaid than a bride. Not because I am high maintenance, but because I am too low maintenance. That sounds like a good thing, but in reality, it's not. My friends really kept me on tract - from finally getting my dress to picking a make-up person and finalizing all the little details. I am sure they were all talking about me - and thats ok - I deserved it. I don't mean that in a bad way, it's just the truth. I could organize an entire wedding for someone else, but when it was my turn - I'm not sure what I was thinking. Heck - I'm not sure what that says about me, either. Everyone involved was amazing. My parents did so much, Grammy helped enormously, and everyone in between... THANK YOU SO MUCH! Even all the children cooperated during the ceremony. EVEN ABBY! I was so proud of all the kids.

Finally to our sweet little girlies. You are the light of our life. You make every day worth living. You bring so much joy into our life. I hope you both know how much we love you and that you will ALWAYS be our baby girls!

Time to brag

I feel like a lot of the time I am complaining, rather than bragging about my kids. Although blogging is definitely a great place to blow some steam off. I must say that for the most part, we have really good children. Ruby can be way too sensitive and Abby can be very stubborn, but all-in-all... they really are the best. Last week when I picked up Ruby from school, her regular teacher was on vacation. So, the 4-5 year old teacher was helping out. She said she had a really rough day with the 3 years olds and they tested her all day. However, she said that Ruby was so sweet and helpful. She was kind and a good listener. The best part was that she said it in front of Ruby. Of coarse, Ruby was shy about it. I was so proud of her. She really is a good girl and it is nice to hear someone else say it. Abby is just about the silliest little girl I know. She is starting to talk more and more and simply just loves to be loved... just not by everyone. She is very stingy with her love and sometimes is way more of a mommy's girl than Ruby has ever been. She loves to have fun and she loves a new adventure. She seems like she has grown in so many ways since she turned two. She still lacks "sand etiquette"... aka throwing sand, and still loves to run off, but she takes her time-outs like a champ and seems like she "gets it"... at least for the time being. Together, with Anthony, my life is really blessed. I am so excited to marry Anthony and I love him so much and I am so grateful... especially because he puts up with my flaws. XOXO

Happy Birthday Abigail Ann!

OK, a day late, but yesterday was hectic and I couldn't get my thoughts together. My Dolly... where would my life be without. You are the light of my life. You bring the sunshine in and keep me smiling. Although it seems impossible, my love for you grows stronger every day. I love when you wake up in the morning and sweetly call for me "Mama, Mama, Mama". I love to sit on the couch and snuggle with you, even if it makes me late to work. I wish I could lay with you longer. I love to rub your little hands and feat and smell you. I am sad every time I have to get up. I love your eyes and have you have just began letting me give you butterfly kisses. Now you tell me "you want me"... or you want something. In fact your favorite words are "I want", "no", and "MINE"... even when no one else is around, I can hear you saying mine! You are starting to become a better listener. Most of our battles end in me asking you if you want time out, and that gets you to stop. I have had to paddle your bottom a few times, but running in the street or 6 houses down is unacceptable. You scare me sometimes because you are so fearless, but I also love it about you! You are definitely going to blaze your own trails and always choose the unbeaten path. You are so loving. I love when you give me kisses and you give the best hugs! You squeeze me tight and don't want to let go. When I get home from work you sprint to me and jump on me and have almost knocked me over. You love to go in your sisters room and look at books. I love when I catch you singing - usually the abc's. You can't pronounce all the letters... some you just hum. You are so curious about the world around you and I could see you one day being mischievous, too. You LOVE water and often ask for a bath by tilting your head, batting your eyes, and say "bath?". I can't wait until the summer so we can play in the water all the time. You LOVE going "bye-bye". You don't even care where we go. You often bring me your shoes and ask to go bye-bye. If you hear the keys jingle, you sprint to the door, ready to go. I think you finally understand me when I say "mommy is just getting something out of the car. You hate when I leave without you. Yesterday when I left for the softball game, you stood at the screen - banging on it - and balling yelling "MAMA"! Every time that happens, you break my heart, but most of the time I bring you wherever I go... you are such an easy baby to take out. I hope that you know how much I love you. I hope you know how special you are. I hope you grow up and always keep that smile. I will forever be sad because I am a working mom. I hope you don't resent me when you are older and understand. My heart is with you, my love is with you, my joy is with you! Happy Birthday Pudding Pop!
Love,
Mommy

Like mother like daughter

As most of you don't know, I talk in my sleep. However, the only time I do is when I am having a really scary nightmare. So, poor Anthony gets woken up to me sleep yelling or saying something else. For example, the last time it happened I had a nightmare that someone broke in to our house with a knife. I called 911 and was screaming my address into the telephone. Anthony woke me up - which always saves me from the bad guy - and said he was awaken by me screaming 5-8-3-9 WHITEWOOD AVENUE!!! over and over. Poor guy! It must also be frightening to wake up that way. I have to deal with his snoring, so I guess it is a trade-off:). So, last week Ruby was napping and started crying. I went to her and asked what was wrong and, without opening her eyes, she said "I LOST MY COOKIE!!!!". I laughed and she just rolled over and kept sleeping. Then last night she woke up crying saying "I DON'T WANNA WATCH THE LAKER GAME!!!!". Too funny.

Sleeping issues

Me, not my kids. I think I have got it all figured out. I woke up at 4:30 this morning and could NOT go back to sleep. I roll over and look at the clock. My first thought: I didn't get the girls clothes laid out last night. And then it continues... what am I going to wear today? Does Anthony have scrubs that are clean. He should, I did a billion loads of laundry. What I am going to cook for dinner? Do I have to cook dinner? Depends on what time Anthony's basketball game is. What time is it anyway? Should I go look? I contemplate a bit, get up and go look. 7:00pm. Well, he gets home around 6:00. Will he want to eat that close to the game? Maybe something light. Do I have stuff to make a salad? Maybe I should just make sandwiches. Maybe I should tell him to pick something up and I can just eat a lean cuisine. I should go to the gym today. Oh, wait, I can't. I am watching Sofia right after work(our neighbors daughter - mommy just gave birth via c-section yesterday and Sofia is really sad and jealous and wants mommy home) Gosh, I remember driving to the hospital to have Abby. I was crying the entire drive because I was so sad for Ruby. Gosh, Abby is going to be 2 this weekend. I'm kinda sad about it. Is that normal? I really need to get cracking on party stuff. Is it bad that I already have all their stuff for their Easter baskets, but not for the party? O'well, I got it early because Easter is a week before the wedding. I need to call the d.j.! I need to go to the reception place and figure stuff out. I need to get my shoes. I need to get my veil. I need to get the girls shoes. I need to write a list of everything we still need. Do we even have enough money? I guess we can charge a bit - NO - we are trying to buy a house. BTW, has the Realtor even submitted the contract to the Lender? Short sales are not short. Why do they even call them short. What time is it ? 6:30! WTH! What is wrong with me? Why can't I sleep like a normal person? I better just get up. I was late to work yesterday, I should go in early today. I am leaving out a bunch of other unmentionables - don't ask:) As I am getting ready, I had my epiphany... STOP THINKING SO MUCH!

This weekend:

Anthony is in San Francisco for his Bachelor Party, so Kim, Ang, and I are going back to the cabin with ALL six kids. Did I mention the oldest is 4? Did I mention there are only 2 bedrooms. Wish us luck and so much for slowing down!

Happy Birthday Angie!

It is my dear friend Angie's birthday! I can't tell you how much I love you and how sad it makes me that I don't get to see you as often as I would like. You have taught me so much in my life, that I am eternally grateful. You are an amazing mother and I love to brag about how you are a stay-at-home mom... and you sacrifice for the good of your family. You have always put your family first and I think that is amazing. I love to hear you laugh. I think you are one of the most beautiful people I know, both inside and out. I thank you for always (trying at least) to real me in and make the right decisions - no tractor rides:) You have a huge heart and an immense amount of passion. You are kind, generous, loyal, and loving. I love you so much and when I think of you I smile. Thanks for being you and I hope you have a wonderful day!